And I do appreciate you being 'round

I HATE APPLYING FOR COLLEGE AND IT'S ALL I'VE BEEN DOING ALL DAY LONG. I seriously feel like my head is going to explode.

Have you ever wondered why some people like a certain kind of music and some people like a different kind of music? I was thinking about it today when I was listening to Hot Fuss in my car. And have you ever wondered why some people like loud music but some people like to listen to it softly? And why do we sing along?

Looking back at sunsets on the east side we lost track of the time

The only thing I wanted for christmas was Hot Fuss on vinyl. But it was really rare and hella expensive... like, a hundred and some bucks a record. And i is on blue vinyl. ANYWAY. last night I walked into hot topic, and I was looking around trying to kill some time before I could go home. And I was just about to walk out and I glanced back towards their vinyl section and it was there... in a special limited edition collector's box with a t-shirt. And stick fingers was there too. I literally about passed out. Like, I couldn't even talk or walk towards it for like, 30 seconds. Then when I finally did, I picked it up and was looking at it and it's only thirty-six bucks, which isn't bad at all considering it comes with a t-shirt. I gave my mom my 15% off thing for hot topic and told her she muuuuusssssssttttttt goooooo if she loves me it all. I'm so excited. Sticky fingers is on red vinyl and hot fuss looked like it was on blue...not the bright blue like it was on ebay, but it could just be a bad picture. I don't even care. I just want to listen to it.

Hey Blaine Steeves.....

A Clusterfuck of Sorts, Disc 2.

Side A:

1. Short Skirt, Long Jacket- Cake

2. Sex and Candy- Marcy Playground

3. Meet Me in the Red Room- Amiel

4. Love You Madly- Cake

5. Going Missing- Maximo Park

6. Going to California- Led Zeppelin

7. Beverly Hills- Weezer

8. Scarlet Begonias- Sublime

9. Glamorous Indie Rock & Roll- The Killers

10. Vince the Loveable Stoner- The Fratellis

11. Goodbye, Bear/ Love Me Dead- Ludo

12. Shut Up and Smile- Bowling for Soup

Side A is the story of

Max........the hopeless romantic

Marcy......the prostitute

Scarlet.....the love interest

Vince.......the drug dealer

Jaret........the optimistic best friend

They're not all strangers...a lot of the story is what happens between each of them that leads them to each other.

Side B is still in the works. I haven't decided if it'll be a new set of people or if I should continue with these characters.

Side B will (I think) have some Motion City Soundtrack, Blink 182, Cobra Starship, Offspring, Modest Mouse, and Green Day.

And me, I ain't ever gonna understand

All I do anymore is read my friend's blogs, day dream, make mixed CDs, read, and do a lot of nothing.

Personally I don't mind.

But I really should work on college stuff.

I need to get outta here.

because I'm starting to get comfortable.

And that's not okay.

I need to get away from here.

I'm so proud of you. Seriously. Stalls is right.

I love you.

I wish we were as close as we used to be.

These songs remind me of you.

I'm sorry I didn't send you anything for your birthday. I wanted to.

I knew this would happen....again.

Fading Joy

Hello?

Mother Moon?

It's me, Joy.

Can you hear me?

Hello?

I know you're up there. I can see you. But you're so far away.

Why are you so far away?

I just want to talk to you for a few minutes. Like we used to. Do you remember how we used to talk? It was such fun!

......What was it that we used to talk about? I've forgotten. Beautiful things, I know that, but I can't.....

......can't quite.....

I don't even know how I got here. Isn't that strange? I know I came from someplace warm. Warm and dark. And water. There was water.

I remember floating in the night sky...

...or deep in the ocean...

And voices! Big soft angel voices. They told me things. Secret things. And they sang to me.

Beautiful songs about.....

I can't remember what the songs were about anymore.

I try... but they're gone.

Won't you tell me Mother Moon? Won't you whisper in my ear one more time?

Please?

Why won't you answer me?!

What have I done wrong?

I know I'm alone if I'm with or without you

I'm in love with Brian Craft. We had so much fun lst night. I went tanning for the first time ever and I loved it. Now today we have to go to our photoshoots and we're gonna look totally busted. hahahahahaha we didn't get to sleep till really late. We were like, running around his dorm making so much noise. His roommate went home for the weekend.

We shared a bed last night. It's a single bed. we were very close to each other. hahaha

I do not want to go to school tomorrow. Oh noooooooo.

Musical auditions went really well. I'm really excited for call backs. I want Belle so bad...I really hope I get it.

Apparently Katti Groso was bagging on all the seniors auditioning this year. She said Katie Shannon couldn't sing, and that Arielle couldn't either. And apparently I'm too fat to be Belle. Whatever bitch. She didn't even get a call back last year. I don't know why she thinks she's gonna get cast.

I got a haircut. I asked for a half an inch off. They cut off FOUR FUCKING INCHES. I'm not okayyyy with it. I cried. A lot. I mean, I know it's stupid, but I haven't had a hair cut in 5 years...just trims, nothing drastic. And then this happened and I had like, a panic attack. I had to re-scheduel senior pictures and everything because it looks terrible. I wish I could have not had headshots today. God, I hate it so much...

Think you got me confused for a better man.

For not having checked my blog in three days, surprisingly few new blogs have been posted. I haven't been in the mood to write either though. So it's whatever. 

I have soooo so so so so much homework to do and I just cant bring myself to do it. I'm supposed to read the first five sections in Alive...and so far, it's pretty boring. I have to do a sketch of my foot, which I plan on doing tonight right before I go to sleep, write two speeches on paintings I've hardly studied, and do two paintings. Shit, and my value figure drawing. Damnnn....

I got a new phone, so I've just been playing with that and listening to music on my lappy.

I've been looking for the soundtrack to Tuck Everlasting for years. and the CD is out of print. Well, they have a copy of it at CD Warehouse for like, $70 bucks. I wish it wasn't so expensive....

Friday night was a lot of fun. A bunch of people went to this girl's house and we were hanging out and watch the Pens game and stuff. I got really sick though, so I had to go home.

You know, it's really strange, but I'm really gonna miss my old phone. I was like, emotionally attached to it. I had old texts saved from my friends that I'd go through that would make me smile. "oh shit don't say anything...nevermind idoit." "I'm lurking like a creep." "Theater people cate, you're one of them." "I know! That's what I said. ugh I'm so mad I'm not gonna sleep till christmas" "you were great" "thanks one love" "I think you have a really pretty voice, so Chuck can stick it." "I think we should fight, like physically. It's the only way." "From this moment on, we're practically soul mates." "Goodnight lovely. Sweet dreams." "You're my hero." Like, I still know most of them off by heart, but still. I dunno. Most of them had to do with someone I care about telling me they loved me. So they were there for reassurance. It's stupid. But I'll miss them.

I hate when you hear a good song and make a mental note of the lyrics so you can look it up later but then don't remember them. I heard the coolest lyrics friday night and I have no idea what they were.

I think Brian is coming up for a little this afternoon. I miss him so much. I'm so worried about him. He hasn't been going to classes lately. We need to have cate brian time. 

My back still hurts from that damn bison this summer. 

My grandma is doing a lot better. She's been moved to a nursing home and is recovering. Sooo that's good. I like her roommate a lot. She's very nice. She told me she thinks I'll be the next Ron Howard. :)

Friday afternoon I was driving around Brant King and Zach Pope and I saw a really old woman driving a red VW bug. I was so confused I literally almost wrecked the car because I was staring after her. hahaha