So This is Christmas

So we're getting down to Christmas crunch time. We have less than a week left and there's still things to buy and ship and wrap and decorate. Personally, I am done with most of the buying, half of the shipping, none of the wrapping, and some of the decorating. And the only reason the decorating is done is because I did it myself. All alone. My mom and I were fighting about something, so she was upstairs and I was left to do whatever I wanted. So I put on Christmas Music and put together my tree and put lights on it and put on ornaments. All in one night. And our tree is pretty much really huge. It was just sort of sad. Because I normally do it with my mom. and I really wanted to do it with my friends. It didn't work out I guess.

I ordered my mom all these presents from this catalogue that I had a $100 shopping spree with, thanks to selling that freaking cookie dough. So I can't really do any present wrapping until that gets her. Because other than all that stuff, I only bought her one thing. And my friends...well...I'm just too lazy to wrap that stuff. I still have to buy my dad something. *cringe* I have absolutely NO idea what to get him. I would totally go for a tie, but of course, he's unemployed. So what would he need another tie for? Plus I have to write Leanne a thank you note. She sent me this fuzzy purse thing....and I know it's the thought that counts, but it honestly makes me wonder if she thinks I'm 6 instead of 16.

I have my Christmas voice recital today. I'm so excited about it. I hope a bunch of people come to hear me. My mom's taping it so maybe I can try to put it up on here and facebook? I don't think so because it's not a digital camera. Maybe if I tape it on my regular camera....I don't know. Anyway.

I love Christmas. But not even like, really the day itself. I like Christmas eve the best. I'm not even sure why. It just like any other day, really. I go to my grandma's and we go to church. But it's the whole magical feeling of it I guess. Like, the entire Christmas season is building up to that night. And it's sort of important you know. Since it's when we kinds celebrate Jesus's birth and all. But people lose sight of that I suppose. Or block it out. Like those dumb 'Jesus is the reason for the season' things. Those have always pissed me off, not gonna lie. I think they're really dumb. I think that they're a lame attempt of putting Jesus into the commercialism of Christmas. And I think commercializing Jesus is just retarded.