Nothing's Gonna Change My World

I'm so angry. So angry. I don't even know what to do with myself.

I'm really glad that I'm hanging out with Alec tonight. Like really glad. Because I don't trust myself.
I'm also glad (a little) that Katie Shannon is still on her way home from New York. otherwise I'd totally be with her, hopefully on my way to a party.

Because when I'm mad, I listen to loud music and I drive too fast and I let my imagination run wild about all the self destructive things I could be doing.

At least Mousegirl cares. Thanks Katie.

I'm so over everyone. I don't know why I bother. They don't care. They don't act like they even want me there or care that I leave. But then when I'm gone its another great excuse to yell at Cate and tell Cate what a bitch she is and talk about Cate behind her back. Yeah, well, I'm done with that. I can't believe I've WASTED so much time worrying about if we're ever going to be close anymore. Yeah well, if the 'we' includes me, then the answer is no. Not like it makes a difference at all.